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Friday, January 6th, 2006
Fri Jan 6th, 2006 9:49pm	okae, im blogging again. im sad. im lost, i duno wad to feel. i pray i shall never have to stead. guys disppoint me too much. they say they like you when they dun. to use us to get over some things? i duno. this is selfish. i suppose guys shud only be for frens and not for boyfrens. dun worry, i wasnt dumped by a guy. i proudly announce that i have ever steaded before. im glad i rejected him. he is just like the rest. i duno. he must have finished using me to get over his girl. if not, y does he like never sms for so long. lucky i din agree to stead him. lucky i din. i duno whats the really happened. i may be unfair to him. but i see wad happened to the pple arnd me, i think guys are farkin' childish. doesnt matter their age. they just dun believe in love. i think they dun noe how to. to the guy hu told me he likes me : im sorry but no. i dun trust guys anymore. not till a while later. perhaps not even forever. im sorry. i noe u still like her. to the guy i may still be liking: i noe im in no position to say anything, so i cant tell u how disppointed i am with you. but still, all the best. sh's a good one, dun hurt her if u are not serious. to the guy hu im exasperated with : if you like her, u better treat her like she deserves. stop it. if you dun like her, u must not drag this thing on. get a move on, you and her. she's waiting. to all the guys: dun use us, man. wadeva the reason. dun just say things thinking they are not serious. girls tend to be more naive. i think im safe. others may not be. treat our feelings with more sensitivity.
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Sunday, December 11th, 2005
Sun Dec 11th, 2005 6:12pm	i bet this entry is gona get ZERO comments cos i've fooled everyone into believin that this blog is dumped... ^^; im seriously too busy. kill me...not. x) anyway, here to answer some memes from ppl... meme 1: Copy and paste the questions to your site and answer them, then pick five people whom you wish to be Singled Out. Don't forget to tell them they've been SINGLED OUT! 1. You get one wish of anything, what would you ask for? I wish that i can possess a special power that will allow me to make my wishes come through. :D 2. What animal would you be? An owl. oh-wise-oh-wise me! xD (sumhow, owls brings dirty thoughts to me... stuff like buttsecks... o0; you'll noe this joke when u do. *nudges bao*) 3. Something you want to do in your life. I want to be able to lick my elbow!!! ><" *practises tongue exercise* <- dun think dirty. 4. One time there were these Ninjas... (finish the statement) who enjoys licking their elbows when being buttsecks-ed...?? =\ 5. One song you could listen to over and over again: write a whole song complimenting me and i'll be able to keep listen to it, even till on my deathbed. :) 6. Coke or Pepsi? Coke is for Mcdonalds, Pepsi for KFC. Of cos my vote goes to COKE!!! xDDD (anyway, wad i said is true. try and ask for pepsi in macs and we'll tell you "no we dun hav none of it..." :D ) 7. Something you're looking forward to. The day when i can start doing what i want and totally ignore others' opinions of me. :) Im halfway through this, baby! *shake-a-bom-bom* (oh no, im thinking of buttsecks again... -.- damn it...) 8. What's a "mastoid"? (Take a guess no peeking in a Dictionary) some kind of jab or pill that can enable you to masturbate continuously for at least 15 min? :\ 9. One good deed you've done lately. erm, i scrubbed the puke-filled toilet bowl in macs? (gosh, dun remind me... Dx) 10. A funny Moment in your life. when im described to look like a hamburger with a smurf's nose...??!! *does not noe how to respond and shall thus, stay silent. -.- * Now im supposed to single out ppl. hmm... EVERYONE HU READS THIS!!! haha xD meme 2: RULES of the "Lame Game" 1. post five weird/random things about yourself 2. at the end of it, put down five names of the ppl whom u wanna tag 3. after that, leave a tag at their tagboard to indicate that they've been tagged and to look at ur blog for the "lame" game rules!!! Wierd/ random things about myself: 1) I HATE THE DENTIST!!! i wud rather go an take 10 injections at a clinic then to lie on a damned chair and watch ppl put things into my mouth. <-(dun think dirty. xD) And the WORST part is that im not able to resist or fight back. I cant bite the dentist no matter how much i want to. ><" 2) I dun dare to pluck my own hair on purpose. I keep thinking that my scalp will bleed... yuckso-pok... x( but if i accidentally pull them out its okae, i suppose... 3) I totally dislike guys that are arnd my age. Childish retards... -.- have to be at least 2 years older than me before they start thinking right. they may still be childish, but at least they dun lie about having girlfrens (when they dun) just to boost their confidence... ~~" 4) I love cats like i love Man. Best is those hu are very different from me. Cats with round eyes sharp nose and are the cutest. Guys shud hav smaller eyes than me have a cute small nose. As you can see, i've got long big eyes and not round big ones. my nose is big and flat nose, so...yarhh... :| 5) i goddamhnit-ly cant stop thinking about buttsecks while blogging this entry... buttsecks not done on me but between harry and MY ron!! 2 manly humans... haha. okae. Claire, i noe u want some uploads. I'll upload them for you if u comment and tell me u haven gotten them yet. If not i'll just assume that u have gotten them from zeena, okae? :) Current Mood: stop thinking abt BUTTSECKS!
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Sunday, November 13th, 2005
Sun Nov 13th, 2005 9:47pm	You're a LiveJournal Junkie! Well, maybe you don't live or die for LiveJournal, but it's what gets you up in the morning. Guilty of reloading your friends page over and over throughout the day? Thought so. Quick, get some fresh air - before you become a full fledged addict! Are You Addicted to LiveJournal? Haha, just for random fun and larffter… I thot I wus QUITE addicted already but guess im well and okae… xD Your Birthdate: March 15 You take life as it is, and you find happiness in a variety of things. You tend to be close to family and friends. But it's hard to get into your inner circle. Making the little things wonderful is important to you, and you probably have an inviting home. You seek harmony with others, but occasionally you have a very stubborn streak. Your strength: Your intense optimism Your weakness: You shy away from exploring your talents Your power color: Jade Your power symbol: Flower Your power month: June What Does Your Birth Date Mean? From bao-pok’s blog… Y does it apply to me too? Haha… I guess this kind of thing is always liddat… xD Disorder Rating Paranoid Personality Disorder: High Schizoid Personality Disorder: Low Schizotypal Personality Disorder: Moderate Antisocial Personality Disorder: Moderate Borderline Personality Disorder: Very High Histrionic Personality Disorder: High Narcissistic Personality Disorder: High Avoidant Personality Disorder: High Dependent Personality Disorder: High Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder: Moderate -- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info -- and this is also from bao… ^^; N Y DOES THIS THING MAKE ME SOUND SO SERIOUSLY SICK AND ALL? I dun think ALL applies lorh… *smacks* Next moment there are gonna tell me I needa see a shrink… -.- Thanks, but a counsellor is bad enuff already… >:( Okay, wad do I wana say huh…………… Ermmmmmmmmmmm… Oh yarhh… I feel like some stupid ass like -.- just now… Today I was breakfast crew for macs and I had to be in charge of making Hotcakes… hotcakes very fun… :D haha, but I keep screwing up… like DUH… wad can uexpect from me… -.- And so I had to stand in from of the hotcake table (its like tepanyaki kind of table… metal and freaking hot, food cooked on the top surface…) I wus waiting for the next order for me to start making the next badge of hotcakes, so I stood there and started daydreaming… (I hate this paragraph, I feel lacking in vocabulary… but heck >.<” ) Then a few MANY seconds later, I felt my ringman (lefthand) hurt like crap… so I look down and saw my hand ON THE METAL COOKING SURFACE… Dx It wus SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO pain!! Budden one of the aunties told me to go and carry stuff so I just went… my hand was hurting all the way… Then this malay auntie noticed me and my stoopitt trembling hand, so she told the other aunties that I burned myself… haha… ( I swear that macs do not only consist of aunties.. xD) So another auntie (omg auntie-ness… -.-) came and check on me and she said very loudly : “ TA1 DE4 SHOU3 ZHI3 ZHU3 SHOU2 LE! “ (translation: “HER FINGERS ARE FULLY COOKED!”) Actually I was okae, but because of wad she said I freaked out and almost wanted to cry when the auntie did sumthing wierd… She took mayonnaise (for McChicken) and smeared it all over my hand… then she told me to wear a plastic glove… haha… I was so surprised I forgot it was painful… haha… After a while, another auntie (yes, its another different auntie… ^^;) toked to me and she said: “ ni3 shi4 bu4 shi4 hen2 gong3 de4 ren2? Shou3 bei4 zhu3 dao4 shou2 zi4ji3 dou1 bu4 zhi1 dao4, fa1 xian4 hen tong4 le4 hai2 gong3 gong3 bu gen ren2 jia1 jiang3… ni3 zhi1 bu4 zhi1 dao4 na4 ge4 tie2 ban3 you3 san1 bai3 duo1 du4? Yi3 qian2 you3 ren2 tang4 dao, han3 dao4 hen3 da4 sheng1, hai2 pao3 qu4 ku1… ni3 hen3 xiang4 mei3 you3 shi4 qing2, zai4 na4 bian1 blur blur zhe4 yang4…” (translation: Are u a very gong person? Hand kena cooked you yourself duno, realized its very pain already then u still gong gong never tell anyone… do u noe the tie2 ban3 (metal surface? =\ ) is 300 degree celcius hot? Last time got human scalded herself and she screamed and ran away to cry… you like never feel anything liddat, walk around blur-blur-ly … ) Okae god… I suck at translating… but hu cares… ^^; I feel dumb, but I feel quite brave… she thot y I never cry… I wanted to cry lorhh, its SOOOOOOOOOOOO PAIN, but I was too surprised by the mayo sauce so I forgot to cry… ^^; heheh… PS: anyway, erm does anyone noe how to get visa card / American express card? xD I wana use paypal and shop online but they say need Visa and Amex… -.- Is there an age limit to apply? ^^; gosh… I feel like a shoppaholic… BUT THAT’S ALL BECAUSE OF ME SEEING ALL THE STUFF THAT JIAMIN AND MELESA HAVE! GRRRRRR… ><” Current Mood: i cant type with my 4th finger Current Music: Psycho le Cemu - Gekiai Merry-Go-Round
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Monday, November 7th, 2005
Mon Nov 7th, 2005 10:56pm	I HATE U COMPUTER! THX FOR MAKING ME RETYPE THIS AGAIN... ~-~" Hi... finalyy another update... ^^; I realised i have a major change! :D I SUDDENLY LIKE ALOT OF THINGS! as in dress sense lahh... haha... xD I realised im very amused when ppl (like mangxie) go "OMG SHEENA WAD IS THAT?! YUCKS ITS SO UGLY!" I find it quite fun actually, cos ppl think im strange... It feels strange too, to see their reactions, i used to ignore it, but suddenly I LIKE IT! wow~ :DDD So what IF i dress like a prostitute? I DARE U DUN DARE! >:D haha... I DO WHAT LIKE, I MAKE MY STYLE, IF I DUN CARE Y DO U? MY OPINION COMES BEFORE YOURS! nananipoopoo xD Anyway, there is no style called "prostitute style" of dressing up, so it cant be used to label others who just try a little harder to be different and a little true-er to themselves... haha... xD so fun! i feel special... and i feel nice and comfortable... i shud just go on with it, rite? :D SO I SHALL... *determined look* HEH... toking about dressing up, I'VE BEEN SPENDING ALOT OF $$$$$$$$$$$$ T-T let me list the things i bought recently : - 1.Black n' white strepey knee-high bottom-up tights 2.Glittery pink sandals 3.Zipper earstud/earring 4.black button-down top (inspired by jiamin cos i think she looked nicein those. xD) 5.Green bead bracelet 6.armwarmers (1 pink and white one with stars. 1 stripey with NEON COLOURS!! x3;) 7.LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG necklace with NEON COLOURED BEADS!! (frens with my armwarmer! :D) 8.Bunny skull bangle(?) ERGH!!!!!!!!!!!! I'VE BEEN SPENDING AND SPENDING!!!!! *kills self* WORK HARDER! EARN BACK THE $ SPENT! *determined look again* xD ohh, i wus searching online for jackets, becos jiamin pissed me off with her super nice white one today... *smackks jiamin* Y DO U GET ALL THE NICE STUFF??!! haha... xD i found this! I LIKE! i can go and be newsreader in this... xD haha... i think this one can wear informally also... :D i like the "worn-out" design on it... ~whooooooooooo... :) wahaha... and i bring u a short movie thingy that will kill you... Even if u dun care about japanese stuff, WATCH IT! ITS SUPER CRAZY!!!! I died-ed there and then when i watched it... TOOO FREAKING FUNNY!!! xDDD; http://www.transbuddha.com/mediaHolder.php?id=1020 This is by the shingo mama guy... haha... Gackt's crazy admirer hu keeps trying to kiss Gackt... xD when he acts as shingo mama, he is freaky, but when he is normal his usual self, he is straight... HEH... xD WATCH IT! WATCH IT! even if u duno hu is gackt hu is shingo mama, WATCH IT! its NOT jrock, so dun worry okae... It just a movie that will make u larff... xD SO WATCH IT! Pictures of shingo mama: dun worry, he dun look dat WRONG way in the show... Just another normal human... xD CHORAL NITE TMR! 2/3 JIAYOU!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD Current Mood: determined look again xD Current Music: Gazette - Shiawase no hibi
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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
Tue Nov 1st, 2005 6:18pm	okae... here's and update, since clairey has been bombarding me for it... -.- <- i noe u hate this thingy, nutto-pok... xD okae... i think i told summof u guys about the jrock radio/podcast/wadever-u-wana-call-it thingy? :D here it is, like wow... im not even sure im allowed to put it here, but i think esthered is like so nice and all so i... :x http://esthered.podomatic.com/ yupp... listen to episode 1 first, followed by the second one... to insult ur intelligence, to 1st on is the one below and the 2nd one is the one on top... xD haha, humour myself... ~whoo... and, erm, the names of the songs played under the cut in case u like any of the songs and decide to request or sumth... :D btw, u can only listen to it there on the webpage cos i tried to download it but failed... Dx anyway, its very easy to press the cutesy play button there... (its green and i like green... :D ) ( sequence of songs played... :D ) Okae... anyways, i think im falling sick soon... maybe im going deaf! *runs arnd* nahh... but my ears are like so blocked!!! Dx HOW~??!! anyway, this few days very busy nehhs, choral nite and all... :D 203 JIAYOU FOR CHORAL NITE!! :D haha... thankyou 203! love you guys... <3 now im off worrying about which school to go to wud want me... Yishun Town have no more spaces... haish... :( Current Mood: i think i have a headache... Current Music: Gazette - shunsetsu no koro
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Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
Sun Oct 23rd, 2005 8:59pm	i've got loads to tell... :D dreams and a good news... Bad news or good news 1st? Okae, bad 1st... I cudnt sleep well last night... Had a hell lot of dreams swimming in and out of me... And a person like me will only remember good dreams and not bad ones... When i do remember, it becomes an omen... ... I dreamt that Mrs Ng told me that i have to leave school... I cried in my dream like omg... T-T budden i suppose in real life im not going to cry... Haha... I hope i can find my emotions again... :) Okae. Forget it... Now with the good news... :DDD I GOT INTO MCDONALDS!!! its an ULU one lahh, in yishun... So ulu that its hard for me to reach it even though i live in yishun... haha, but im still SUPER HAPPY!!! x3; the pay is actually quite little but heck, better than nothing... I collected my uniform today with jolyn... Its so not nice -.- , but what can you expect anyway... *snortz* I cant figure out how to wear the belt... =\ n i wana get my hat soon!!! IM SOOOOO EXCITED!!!!! *falls down* x3; okae... Now my 2nd dream... :D this one is so gooooooood i love it to bits and pieces atom by atom... (i just re-read mariglods again and i had a good larff at my past interpretations... I make stupitt interpretations then, not that now is any much better... but at least i see slightly more now... :D) okae. i digressed... -.- erm, i dreamt that i was watching Super Funkies and junyang was intro-ing all the up-coming concerts in singapore. Then suddenly he flashed a DIRU LIVE!!! n then he talked about how Singapore has finally opened up decided to invite Jrock bands to Singapore for a BIG BIG concert... I was like : OMFhide OMFGackt OMFG??!! I couldnt believe my ears, so i went and stalked Junyang... haha... He assured me about it and i was like a rabid fangirl, squealling my head off... Junyang was trying to sneak away when i POUNCED on him again and asked him about the ticket prices... Guess wad he told me? Wu3 Bai3 Kuai4... ($500) U see larhh i keep having to say wu bai kuai for chinese speech that i even have to dream of it... -.- Then when i heard i was like so sad i started wailing and sobbing onto Junyang :P i told him I only have $10... N i will do anything to get into the concert... The he said :" Ni3 zhe4 li3 you3 $10. Qi2 ta1 de4 wo3 fu4." ( again, negative impacts of too much chinese speech on a pathetic human xD just that this time it is the other way round... Original from script: wo3 zhe4 li3 you3 $10. Qi2 ta1 de4 ni3 fu4 lmao... then sumhow i managed to get him to sponser the whole of 2/3... xD then because we cane as a class, we were considered VIPs and we got the front three rows!!! x3 (no seats if u were wondering, cos its always best to stand and try and make a grab for the vocalists' crotch and headbang and all with the music.) then because i was the super nice human hu got everyone the seat i was like right smack in the center of the row... ~whoot!! first up: Diru!! (i seriously question y they were 1st up... I always thot the best is to be saved for the last... =\) (  details inside for diru fans, as they wud understand better... U wud too, if u try to be slightly more interested in jrock... :D  ) the next up was meev... :) he sang his new song lahh, kekkonshiki no uta and are you ready to rock... haha... But he was in was in his freedom fighters army-print top lehhs... Duno y... =\ then the next few bands i cudnt recognise, so i was sianed. I wiggled my way out and looked for pam to ask for water. Then she lent me her water bottle and she went elsewhere... so i held on to the water bottle and i left the concert hall and sat outside... U noe outside always got those tables where ppl will sit there and give entering humans flyers on the programmes? I sat there at the table. :) then suddenly can smell smoke. Smoke as in smoking smoke and not smokey smoke. yupps. then i saw 4 hawt guys walk to the table and sit down either infront or beside me. to my left- kyo left left- meev in frnt- kao left in frnt- die haha... then i asked them (in *english) whether they understand/can speak chinese. (*it is said that die and kyo and totchi can understand english quite well, shin-chan is still learning and kao's english is only limited to cursing and swearing xD) kyo put down the lyrics he was trying to memorise and die started to circle some of the words and wrote in out in han4 zi4... i remember there was a word 'hua1' -flower/hana :) i wus super amused... xD the i held out pams' water bottle and showed them the han4 zi4 printed on it. Die could read them all, kyo could read 2 words and meev 2 words too... sheesh... i that was lame of me... then they had to go backstage again cos the concert is ending and the finale required all the performing bands to send a few members and everyone play a grand last song. x) diru send kao and totchi... Suddenly, i bumped into pam and she asked me where is her waterbottle. then i remembered die wus holding it. so i sneaked in backstage and there was like many make-up rooms... I found the diru one and i saw kyo reading his lyrics, slumped on the floor. Die was on his fone. My fone rang at that time. It was my papa, and he asked me wad i want for dinner, fried rice can? xD Lmao. I hung up and i saw die hang up to. I was just about to ask him where is the water bottle when... POOF IT BECAME KOKOCRUNCH! :D NAHH... it just ended there... boo... ~~" haha. But it waso ne hellof a dream. It made up for the previous one, haha... ><" Current Mood: geez? Current Music: hana - kagraa,
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